Mama Kat's prompt: What is your cross to bear?
I am a listener. A really good listener. I don't always give advice, actually I think I usually don't. Sometimes people just need someone to listen and I am that person for others.
I have always been a confidante. When I was young, I was my mother's confidante. I hated it. She told me about all of these problems she was having with my younger brother. I began to think that maybe if I gave them problems they would talk about me instead. But I didn't, really. I quietly listened.
A good friend recently told me that I am her "person." The person that she can always rely on and can say anything and everything too. That meant a lot. We had had some problems in the past but now our friendship is solid. I love that I can be there for someone who needs it.
On the other hand, I am a terrible talker. I don't really have a "person." I don't have someone to run to and tell all my crap to. And even if I did, I am not sure that I would. I feel like if I tell someone something then I am giving them the load. Like now they are going to worry about me or whatever and I certainly do not want to do that to anyone. I don't want people to worry about me, so I remain quiet.
Maybe that is why I blog. What I don't want to verbalize I type. But that isn't necessarily true either. God knows I would be blogging a whole lot more and it would be a whole lot less interesting if I did.
Anyways, I am a good listener. I am always interested (or feigning interest.) I like it but sometimes I loathe it. It is my cross to bear.