I know I am not a bad mom, not a bad girlfriend, not a bad pet owner, but sometimes I have a hard time remembering that.
Take this morning, for instance. I did not want to get the boy up for school. Or ready. Or walk him to the bus stop. And I did not want to go out with the dog. I guess, now that I write them out, they are all reasonable things not to want to do, but this morning I felt lousy. Like I was letting them all down. Like I didn't want to honor any of my responsibilities.
Last night, I did not want to work out. At all. I just wanted to knit. That's all I've really been wanting to do lately, but there is never time. By the time there is time, I am too tired. And then I get depressed and then I feel even more tired.
Sometimes I feel like a lousy person. I just want to sit. And do nothing. And when I do that sometimes I feel better, but sometimes I feel worse. I feel lazy.
And now I feel like a lousy girlfriend because it is way easier to type "I feel" rather than say it.