Thursday, September 27, 2012

Sometimes I Feel Like A Lousy Person

I know I am not a bad mom, not a bad girlfriend, not a bad pet owner, but sometimes I have a hard time remembering that.

Take this morning, for instance. I did not want to get the boy up for school. Or ready. Or walk him to the bus stop. And I did not want to go out with the dog. I guess, now that I write them out, they are all reasonable things not to want to do, but this morning I felt lousy. Like I was letting them all down. Like I didn't want to honor any of my responsibilities.

Last night, I did not want to work out. At all. I just wanted to knit. That's all I've really been wanting to do lately, but there is never time. By the time there is time, I am too tired. And then I get depressed and then I feel even more tired.

Sometimes I feel like a lousy person. I just want to sit. And do nothing. And when I do that sometimes I feel better, but sometimes I feel worse. I feel lazy.

And now I feel like a lousy girlfriend because it is way easier to type "I feel" rather than say it.

5 comments:

  1. OMG wanting to sit and do nothing once in a while is totally normal. I have one of those nights at least once a week!!

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  2. I am with you on feeling like a lousy person but since it is just me, it is all channeled against myself.

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  3. I generally feel the way you do. There is nothing wrong with you. You are beautiful. And you are not a 'bad' anything. We all get weary for a variety of reasons. Some more than others. It is not wrong to want to rest and just do what you want or even nothing at all. Peace.

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  4. We are always the hardest on ourselves. Sometimes, not "feeling" like doing something is the best time to rally and step up. Your decision will be blessed- and the pride you will feel... will change your attitude.

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  5. You so have permission to have a lousy, I don't feel like making another PB and J sandwich day...I have so been there!! You are a beautiful person and don't let the lie that you are bad b/c you were not motivated one day.

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