It gets better. Seriously. Even though you probably don't believe me, it really does.
I've been through a divorce and although it was a different situation, as situations usually are, it was still one of the worse things that has happened to me. Ever. It was Horrible. My ex had been using drugs and neglected my son while I was at work and I found this all out from a social worker who came to my house to tell me it was the ex or my son. I made the only decision that I felt was an option, my son.
I grieved for my lost husband. I felt as if the person I loved had died, or, more likely, that person never existed to begin with. People told me it got better. They told me that I would love again, but I did not believe them.
But it does and you do. It'll get better for you. You will fall in love again and although it won't be the same kind of love, who knows, maybe it will be better. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I know it is hard. I know that it fucking sucks. I hope that my email, along with all the others you will receive, helps a little bit. We've experienced them, too, and lived to tell about it.
Keep your head up,